Struggles with routine changes
I struggle with changing my routines. My mind usually wants to follow a predictable pattern even if it keeps me stagnant and unhappy. Such is the case with my dead end job. I hate it but I’ve been going to it for so long that whenever I try to look into things that could change my life, I remember that I have a work schedule and I worry whether or not trying something new will interfere with it. It will make me feel discouraged to the point I lose enthusiasm.
Even if I have time to do things before and after work, I still have difficulties doing different things than I normally do though lately I’ve just been resting in my bed or the couch because anhedonia has robbed me of all my passions.