I feel persecuted all the time
I feel like I am wished ill will and suffering by others all the time. People glare at me every day, I am mocked for my voice as well as my receding hairline, I never fit in with group events, I am targeted by aggressive people for my money or my car, and I fear that people who either have walked out of my life or I’ve had conflicts with no longer wish me well even if they stated supportive things before.
I sometimes wish I was never born if I was going to be bullied and rejected by others. It makes me want to Jill myself sometimes because I fear I will just continue living a lonely and unhappy existence because nothing ever seems to change for me.