Hi, I'm Bender
Bender
Citizen
Hi, I'm Bender and I suck at introductions - I've only written one before.
Even if most of you know me and my story, blame Teach for the information dump that follows ;)
My introduction to the world and the first two decades of my life were filled with violence and hate. My mother was NPD and a bag of chips, my father a violent alcoholic and I mostly grew up in the system. My mother took me back after my brother killed himself and after she spent 2 years trying to do the same to me, I ran away at 14, thinking I have a better chance of surviving on my own. That's how I became homeless for a while.
In the first half of my existence, I battled depression, CPTSD, anger, insomnia and constant suicidal tendencies on a daily basis which culminated with an epic breakdown that led me to reconsider the way I was living, pushed me to face my demons and make peace with the past. I didn't have any proper professional guidance and somehow blundered my way through it, often doing more harm. It was a devastating experience of self-deconstruction and annihilation. But I managed to put myself back together somehow and my (then future) wife lovingly guided and supported me through the worst of it.
The only things that never went away are my chronic insomnia and a lingering sadness in the way I perceive the world, but I rely on humour to face the ugliest side of the world and myself.
In the second half, my life turned out much better than I ever had any right to hope, I have a few close friends, a wife I love dearly and two kids that I both love and even like just as they are.
I was diagnosed late in life, they spotted me while evaluating my son. The diagnosis didn't make a huge difference for me, but it helped me understand some aspects of my personality and behaviour better. I feel at home with many people on the spectrum, as well as with non-autistic eccentrics and oddballs.
Working out and cooking or baking are my favourite ways of dealing with stress and I generally like doing things with my hands. IRL I lean on humour to face the ugly side of the world and my own demons. I also love animals and I'm officially a cat fanatic.
I have more hobbies than free time, but I'm mostly interested in classic literature, history, film, music and art, I’m passionate about books and ideas and a seeker of beauty. I’m curious and inquisitive by nature and love learning and exploring new avenues: it keeps me young and hopefully sharp. I often try to understand things without judgement and believe in cultivating compassion, but I can also be a bit rigid when it comes to treating and addressing people in a civilised way.
Working out and cooking or baking are my favourite ways of dealing with stress and I generally like doing things with my hands. I also love animals and I'm officially a cat fanatic.
If you made it this far, it's nice to meet y'all :)
Comments
I didn't know even half of this. you've been through much, and came out on top. If I had a hat I'd tip it to you.
Good to have you here. :)
Thanks for sharing so openly and putting your trust in us as a support network. I'm so thankful to have met you as my friend and co-survivor. If there's anything you ever need, or anything you ever want to talk about, I'm here for you.
Hugs
Is
Bender you are someone that I admire, you helped me through my own battles and I think of you as a brother in arms.
In a
Nutshell, you are alright. ;)
A good skin you mean? ;)
Thank you all, I'm equally glad to have run into you, cheesy as that sounds.
Wolfram - heh, I've been pretty open on WP about most of it, but it's not the place to go into too much detail, AF is pretty good with that and has some very knowledgeable regulars. It's also very common for people there to make long posts and nobody minds if it's good stuff.
Hopefully, we can get the best of both worlds here and be supportive of each other while still having some fun and banter ;)
Welcome Bender.
There is no way I am making an introduction thread and baring my soul to all.
How about your arse? ;)
Well I would send you a photo but the PM's are inactive , what a shame
Ahhhhh Bender, you already know how much I worship you.
Ferris please don't bare your arse, btw what I am I doing wrong with the bold? why does it leave the stars?
bare my arse , dont bare my arse, make up your mind
don't know why your bold didn't work Teach , I just highlighted the word I wanted bold and clicked the 'B'
I'm inviting Ferris and everyone else to The Lounge for any naughtiness you feel inclined towards. Save the saucy stuff for when you can PM, I'll wait for you, Ferris, but you'd better make it worth it
Teach :)
I think you put a space between the stars and the word - both in the beginning and end
I'm on the bolding stuff, no stopping me now.
Wait!
Did I miss something? Were we mooned? Where's The Lounge? What type of sauce are we having?
@ Wolfram, you don't need to tip your hat for Bender, kneel and pledge your sword to him, that he would appreciate.
I made a thread in Random
https://neurovoice.org/discussion/32/the-lounge#latest
@Ferris, the question being, is your arse worth baring at all?
Please don't do that dude o_O
Lovely Teach, I'm an easily embarrassed robot
Hey wait, is that a quote?
How do we quote?
I just copied the text and used the embedded quote function.
Well, I'll be a monkey's uncle!
Thanks!
awesome , I quoted a quoted quote
Pyramid quotes OMG
Can we underline, or is that out of the question?
Hmm lemme see
text
̲ ̲u̲n̲d̲e̲r̲l̲i̲n̲e̲
underline
How do we quote an image or a video?
you don't need to use the insert tag 'ins' you can just use the underline tag 'u'